After a 2 year journey to become a surrogate, I’m finally in the midst of hormone injections and on the eve of the doing the embryo transfer. This has been a journey of magic meets science. Pregnancy is a magical rite of passage for a woman, and this is an extraordinary situation that not many get to participate in. I had to honor this very special event by doing a ritual, a Yoni Steam. Not only was this a physical creation of a scared space in my bathroom, it was also creating a sacred space in my womb.
I turned my bathroom into a scared temple of fertility by setting up an altar, adorn with flowers, candles, a sacred turtle fertility statue, a small birds nest with a moon stone sphere, and other crystals.
I began the evening by lighting candles and starting the slideshow I created with photos of fertility goddess set to the music of Nina Lee’s Sacred Pregnancy: The Deep Drink. I discovered this powerfully beautiful album when I was pregnant with Elliot. The music made me feel so powerful and connected to the great creator.
I saged the room and myself, boiled water and filled a bowl full of herbs. A beautiful mixture of lavender rose petals, chamomile and yarrow. Once the water was hot, I added it to the bowl of herbs. I ran a bath and filled the tub with lavender, chamomile, rose petals, and then a few drops of vetiver essential oil.
I wrapped the bowl with a towel, so I that wouldn’t burn my legs, and straddled the bowl. I allowed the steam to enter my womb. I began to mediate. I envisioned that my womb was full of love and lush with fertility, waiting for baby magic to be placed there to grow and thrive for the next 9 months.
After about 20 minutes of the Yoni Steam, I got into the tub and breathed in the delicious smell of the herbs and oils. I let the warm water hold me and absorb any fear, anxiety, or doubt that may have been lingering around this journey. As I soaked in the loving embrace of the water, a little voice began calling my name. My 3 year old was looking for mama and thought it was exciting that I was having a bath in flowers. He climbed into the bath with me. His innocent and curious energy was a great addition to the divine feminine energy overflowing throughout the room.
Once we finished with the bath, we sat on the floor, breathing in the energy that was created. Energy that overflowed of love, devotion, feminine divinity, strength, power and magic. Then we closed with a prayer.
I felt an incredible openness in my womb. As if it expanded, and double its size. My womb was now a sacred space to create magic, love, and to complete a family.
Love, magic and fertile wombs,